My mama used to say “Your father has me so confused that I don’t know my ass from my elbow." When I was a kid, I didn’t know what she was trying to tell me. Today, it makes perfect sense.
Intense emotion piled on top of intense emotion over time… leads to utter confusion. My parent’s marriage was a roller coaster ride that ended in divorce after 20 turbulent years, and the turmoil involved in its slow demise ended up leaving us all discombobulated. Clarity came, but it took years.The battles of human love going bad -- the fog of war-- layers of shifting emotional sands, leave the mind in disarray. We end up upside down, spinning round, reaching for what was just there and is now nowhere to be found.What’s real now? What’s not? Who am I? Who are you? What were we? What are we now? In the thick of it, these are unanswerable questions. 'Till the roller coaster stops and till the dust clears, you just can’t tell False From True.
This song is a co-write with my good friend, Beth Nielsen Chapman.
Lead Vocal, Acoustic Guitar - Mary Gauthier Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar - Guthrie Trapp Upright Bass - Viktor Krauss Drums - Lynn Williams Piano, Hammond - Jimmy Wallace Background Vocals - Beth Nielsen Chapman
Produced by Mary Gauthier and Patrick Granado ©2014 Mary Gauthier/In the Black Records
LYRICS: FALSE FROM TRUE
Jagged edges broken parts Where you end and where I start Got so tangled up in you I can’t tell false from true You woke up inside a cage I woke up consumed with rage A million miles from our first kiss How does love turn into this?
A stranger showed up in your eyes Hard as steel, cold as ice I tried and tried but I could not break through There’s two of you and one don’t feel And I don’t know which one is real Loving you has left me black and blue I can’t tell false from true
Where’d you go where are you now? Can you feel my heart somehow? Still so full of love you But it can’t tell false from true
A stranger showed up in your eyes Hard as steel, cold as ice I tried and tried but I could not break through There’s two of you and one don’t feel And I don’t know which one is real Loving you has left me black and blue I can’t tell false from true I can’t tell false from true
©2013 Mary Gauthier/Beth Nielsen Chapman